karenisherkc

2009-11-15T22:17:00.001+08:00

APEC 2009.

APEC GALA dinner held at Esplanade yesterday.

The best part, President OBAMA was there!!! OMG!

AND...

I did not get to see him at all !!!

WTH

Its like the leaders and securities/body guards were crowding around him and blocking my view!

All of them were tall, i did not even manage to firgure out where he was standing.

ARGh..

The dinner wasn't a dragging one though..

Luckily got chosen to be drink server instead of food as the synchronisation for serving food seems so cock when i see them walking round the tables and they just look so BLUR.

Hahas. it was fun looking at them yesterday!! LOLS

Luckily lydia was there and so I have someone accompany me to work.

Meng Yi, Farhan and Aishah was kinda unlucky cos they did not get the APEC pass and couldn't work. SAD.. they went for so many trainings but yet did not get to work for the actual day.

Hmmm, dinnner ends around 10 and we cleared almost everything to the back area. Went back hotel at 1120pm.

Meet up RS and Cindy after work and slack around.. then at 2am, to Arena. Hahahs. Get to see the Singers again!!!

They are good looking and attractive but kind of a little flirting in Arena.

hahas. anyway, i still love the way they sing..!

And there is two BRAZILIAN GUYS came to us and dance with us. I donnoe whether they are drunk, but they seems so normal. One of them keep on coming towards me, I dance with him and OMG he start to hug me and!!!!!!!........ trying to KISS my lips. WTH. i pushed him away and said NO! omg

but they did not spoil my mood anyway, just have to accept there are always ppl like them in clubs..

And the very first time i went club till 5am in the morning.. slack at mac till 6.30am and then back home to sleep.. Whoo.. i think i should get a life like this cos i just fell so wanna club again, every week !!!!

HAHAHs

I need to change my lifestyle and don wanna think alot and get emo again and again.

2009-11-01T03:52:00.000+08:00

Things aren't right today. What's wrong with me? ..
I donnoe.. I wasn't in the mood ?
ITs PMS again!! fcuk.
I was alright when talking to mum in the morning and all of the sudden, my mood changed.
Especially when i see humans rushing and pushing their way to get up and down the bus..
WTH.. it just spoil my day..
suppose to go for APEC training in the morning and work at night, but i went to accompany him..
As i said, things wasn't right .. my mood..
and just some minor things he got so agitated.
Well, why can't i say what i wanna say? and so why he can and yet, i don show my attitude?
AND What smoking benefits u ???
for u to de-STRESS?. like what? and how does it helps?
when things happen, u just light up ur stick.
OuH.. com'on, it's just a stupid and dumb excuse to use...

Though i admit I did that before bcos of u. But i will never again...
It isn't worth anything and i don gain anything as well..
You're just spending off ur money . let it burnt, and kills ur lungs.
WHAT is WRONG with u ? ..

FYP sucks big time. it takes up all my free time just to use the com, research, and type it out.
what's the point? .. its just like another tut but accumulated for two sem.
working on something u'r not interested in?
doing things that u don like to do?
ITS just fucking waste of time. .
Why wanna give us such nonsensical project?. . and in turn is grading but not anything else.
I HATE FYP BIG TIME!!

2009-10-14T11:30:00.001+08:00

Its wednesday!!!
Have been wearing braces for a week and the feeling is still sucky.
Well, not only it is irritating but my mouth seems to be protruding !!!
gosh.. it is so irritating to eat any food. every single food i bite gets stuck between. And i cannot bite the apple anymore!! I realise i've been brushing my teeth for 4 times a day and my inner skin gonna tear anytime. I really wish i could take all the metals out of my mouth in no time.
And how i wish i could eat everything i want right now !! its now!!!
i look like a retard when i talk because the upper lips seems to be stiff and not moving!!! It just freak me out =(
dear gonna go back to Penang today as well. sigh, I feel so down.. i donnoe why
did not spend much time with him during my hols and wanted to spend this few days with him before sch starts on Monday but he's going back.
I just feel like i'm losing him again. the same old feeling i've felt before. I really wish i could stay with him and be with him. But i no matter what, i am still unable to face my parents and to tell them eveything.
It has been dragging for so long and yet, i'm still here keeping quiet.

I gonna miss u, seriously.

2009-10-06T23:15:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl!! i'm having my braces on tml.!!! 'm kind of so moody today..
Sigh..
I'm not feeling nervous but just don't wish to have braces on now!
I cannot imagine how ugly my smile will be.. SEROIUSLY i don wish to have braces on !!!!
OMG.. i'm feeling terrible.. I can't smile w/o showing my teeth!! ~_~
i feel like crying ~~
OMG OMG OMG!!!!
Sigh.. i can't have braces on ..seriously i can't. and of cos there is a reason to it..
it will spoil everything.. its everything ..
FARK ,
okay, i donnoe how it will goes tml.. but i think i don want it to happen..

i just feel that im gonna destroy the myself if im having braces~~

2009-09-20T22:43:00.002+08:00

I'm getting real busy for F1 starting tml..

will be VERY busy the whole WEEK~!!

2009-09-16T01:50:00.001+08:00

I pass my driving test!!!
OMG! hahhas. I'm seriously shock that i manage to pass..

Okay, PPL, i need u guys to type ur blog address in the tagboard .. i lost every single link in my previous blog just because i accidentally click save template when previewing the skins..
Im kinda pissed that i've to waste so much time to complete my blog again..!!ARGH!!
sigh.. its a temp skin that i'll be using.. no time to modify for now.. hmm, just do me a favour kay!!

I'm gonna have braces on next week and this thurs will have to extract two wisdom tooth at one go..
sigh, i thought for my case is so mild that i need to just wear it for half a year..
But, it has to be at least a year.. and for me, exactly one year.. shit.
I couldn't imagine hw ugly i will look like smiling or laughing with my mouth wide open showing my teeth.
~_~
And there goes my ugly grad pics next April..
well, i can't wait to extract my tooth.. i WANNA FEEL THE PAIN! lols

2009-09-12T15:29:00.000+08:00

2009-09-07T18:06:00.002+08:00

My blog works in sch!!!
ARGH!!
wat happened to blogger.. ????
OMG OMG OMG ~ this is shit man.. shit ass...

Reek is travelling back from Penang todaY!! hopefully can meet him on wed or thurs. hahas.
YEA!

and and and.. nowadays Rahim is having PMS. I don't understand why he got so pissed and frustrated bout us not working for the past one and the half months as most of us are having our exams.. Now even worst, can't get booking easily. He'll get agent staffs first and then turn to us when there is still slots available.
WTh.

Driving today was bad. real bad... damn damn damn..
I don't noe what's with me today .. I couldn't drive like how i did when i entered circuit.
and every single station wasn't smooth for me. I'm quite worried of my TP next tues.
Sigh.. onli two lessons more before TP and its like WTF.. i'm feeling nervous already .
But all i noe is i don wanna fail, if not it will cost me like another 1000 bucks..

And hahas.. with this kind mood i went to school to do fyp. was lae for an hour. lols. But being courteous, I help Koh and Neo to buy Mr Bean!! wahahahas.

Okay, gtg now.. gtg HOME!!! im still in school..! jus imagine its holidays and im in school? .. It's so unlike me. lols. Alright, i wanna wait for Reek to call. lolS!~

2009-08-29T23:26:00.000+08:00

OUH SHIT !! my blog is still as dumb as it is.

SigH..

OKay, finally the day im waiting for arriving in two days timE!!!
Last paper! which is a long module aS WEll, contract Admin.

Ouh deaR, im broke recently because of not working for the past of 1month & 1 week. thought i could give myself time to study but yet, its like wasted my time day dreaming and slacking.
Only got tensed up when it gets nearer and nearer to test dates and exams. Only then i started my revision.

Im gonna work like hell in the hols to earn whatever money i'hv spend.
=( if not, i'm gonna be even poorer once my dental appointment and braces begins..
as well as my TP on 15th sep.
WTH.. i'm like spending Few hundred dollars per month just to pay for my car, bills, and transportation..
OMG OMG OMG. Im feeling so terrible and just hoping i could earn as much as i can and as soon as possible !!

Reek is back in Penang again..will only be back on 3rd or 4th sep..
but this time i don feel like as if i missed him so much as before..
because he's been spending his free time with me almost every week and 3 or 4 times per week..
HAhAs.
Im feeling better in my relationship right now..
No more EMO and hopefully, will never have it again..
I love u, please take care of urself ya !!

OkaY, im really, seriously on diet now.
Please don temp me with any fattening food !!
might not get tempted anyway, hahas
hmmm, Hopefully a big change after the hols!

Please wish me all the best for my last long waited Contract Admin paper on tues morning 9am!!!
hahas
All to my poly cliques, do ur very best for the last paper guys!! Genting trip would be more fun then!! lols

2009-08-27T10:17:00.000+08:00

i don understand what is wrong with blogger..
My com is down and now i have to use the laptop.
i donnoe whether vista is giving problems to post in blogger or blogger has change its features.
I CANT post any photos and not even change font size, colour etc.. WTH !! will update once my com is back to normal. I cant do anything with this vista program. WTf

2009-07-28T00:23:00.004+08:00

Alright.. some updates.

pathetic class attendance today. Only 50% came.. and buddy class was like almost full attendance. hhass
Ming hui, Hardy, Jeanette and i went to gym after class.!! surprisingly, it was the first time in poly that we get tgt and exercise...
Gym session wasn't bad either. four of us was so enthu.. And shane supposed to join us but he was caught up with the jam at M'sia. Well, next time then!!~

After gym, Jeanette went to work and Ming Hui was dying to watch TRANSFORMER though he had watched it once. I was kind of free today and so i said if he can find a theatre showing TRANSFORMER, i'll watch it wif him. LOLS. he did found GV and Eng Wah still showing TRANSFORMERS!!! Guess what?!! I asked Hardy to tag along as Ming Hui's fren, Wen Zhong is tagging along ans im afraid i've got nth to say.. and in order for Hardy to tag along, Ming Hui had no choice and chose other movie instead.
HAHAS.
Hardy watched TRANSFORMERS since it's realeased..

In the end, we chose Haunting. =_=
AND!!!!! i was so dumb that i couldn't rmb the movie title i watched. Only when i was in the theatre, i realised i've watched Haunting with reek 2 weeks ago!! its like WTH!!
hAhas.

It was raining so heavily today..
We dropped off at sommerset w/o knowing it was raining and we actually bought 2 umbrellas from 711 just to cross over from SAKURA to cineleisure.. =_=
we still got ourselves drenched ~~ hahahs. cheapo umbrella at $5.90!! Can't blame the quality and its size as well!

Minghui and Wenzhong smuggled subway into theatre while Hardy smuggled LONG JOHN SILVERS!! wahahahs. Cool uh.. after movie, vincent suggested to eat chicago steahouse..
LOLS. his appetite is really damMnmmNN horrible.. eat eat and eat non-stop!!
hAHahhaHAhs

alright~ thats all for now`

2009-07-13T22:24:00.002+08:00

well, everything is back to normal again..
Back to the same old me..
i really love him alot. . i Can't loose him and seriously, i need him.
Yes, i tried.
I tried giving up again.
I tried going out with guys.. But that doesn't work out either.
I donnoe if i did something wrong.. but i think i did..
I've got no courage to tell him anything bout it. And I myself don't believe i Did that.. Im felling shit.

KAREN!! WTF R U DOING??? !!!!

I LOVE U REEK.~
I can't loose u .. and I really can't ..
but things just aren't working out in us..
I need ur love more than i do..
SHIT.. i'm just loosing this little feelings .. little hope which i've put in so much in u..
I'm numb..
sober
drunk..

This is what my love life is?.. With every hope, evry single love.
but the dissappointment is still too much ..
my heart is still bleeding..
I'm not giving up.. its just that i cant wait too long for u to do things...
its not working at all and we r just getting further apart..
All i want is just a four letter word.. LOVE.

That's all, okay?

2009-07-07T22:42:00.003+08:00

WAITER and WAITRESSES WANTED!!!

SALARY: $6 per hour plus additional CPF(CPF not included in pay)
LOCATION: will be posted to different hotels
CRITERIA: no experience required
ALL PRs, FOREIGNERS and S'POREANS are WELCOME!

ONE day training will be given. its not a hands on training!!!

TRAINING DATE: next sunday 19th July
TRAINING LOACATION: 02 mactaggart road.
(nearest mrt station is ALJUNIED) bus n.o 62 8 90 151

2009-05-29T19:13:00.002+08:00

i Realised i've not been blogging since like.. so long?..
neglected my blog for quite some time and now im back blogging to keep it alive..

Hmmm... right now, there's lots of tutorials to be completed, FYP and.... term test which falls on NEXT WEEK!!
well, not much confident for this coming test as there's still something else in my mind.. which actually made me think about it again and again.
Not in the mood for test.. but hopefully everything will be smooth throughout..

FYP is a hassle. my grp is doing some kind of collaboration with CPG on improving their IT software. thought this would be a better project for us as long as we can change our facilitator. However, we're still at the ZERO level instead as our report is still a peice of clean sheet.
went to our first site visit at Aljunied Town Council @ Eunos branch office.
Alex, Property Manager, actually brought us to the rooftop.. so COOL..!! hahas. didn't noe its so complicated up there with roofing felt and all ..
AND, the best thing is that if u wanna commit suicide, u can jump off from the rooftop.. LOLS

EFFECTIVE SPEAKING SKILLS
my gems module..
story telling test today. reading time was like onli 5 mins and we're to tell the story using our own words and adding expressions as well as exxagerate it.
I've tried my best to tell nonsense.
loLS.
Got nervous when i sat down in front of the lecturer.
She made me so nervous by looking at me and smiling throughout. thanks huh!..
ending part of my story is like shit.. didn't prepare for my ending.. YUpp, so that's the end of story telling test. Next will be a kind of argument on certain issues.. Might be easer =D

Im feeling out of love.. to love or not to love ?..
it has not been a smooth one right from the start and everything jus happened out of sudden.. now im really getting into deeper thoughts whether he's the RIGHT one .. im giving up hope .. What i get is dissappoint in return . . BUt why should all this happen to me when i've done nothing wrong at all?. .. Am i really that useless ??.. Im tired.. really tired..
I don noe how long i wanna drag this thing on but the more it drags on, the worst it will be..
maybe i should learn to let go and actually think positive.. but the problem now is i cant get myself to do so..

2009-05-16T01:26:00.003+08:00

Im so bored..
days just passed on and on like this.
its like no motive .
sigh.
i donnoe why im getting so bored and cant sleep well at night.
hw nice if there isn't nightime at all?.. so ppl can just sleep anytime, wake up anytime and jus go out anytime.
there wont be a limit whereby u have to close shop at night, no limits that u must be home by late night, no limits on what u gonna do everyday.

im getting bored in life with no target. no motive.
WHAT a LIFE to live..
so bored~~ getting mad when my time is not being make use of!!!
thats also the reason why im not late for school since sch starts..

2009-05-13T20:52:00.005+08:00

YEA!!!!!~ i pass my FINAL THEORY TEST!!!

finally. HAHahHHAhahHAAHAHahHAHahas

okay, that's all for now.

2009-05-01T01:21:00.002+08:00

I admit i wasn't in good mood this few days.
i wasn't being who i am.
i cried. i laugh.
i am trying my very best to make myself occupied everday.

sigh

Im beginning to feel the pain in my heart again..
its hurting me again..
Im really really SAD.
There's no one i can lean on..
now that things have become worst..
I really donnoe who i can talk to.
i really donnoe hw to survive thru..

It hurts
it huRts
It hurtS..

Im falling out of love..
everytime whenever it came into my mind, the tears will just fill up my eyes..
i wanna get so drunk that i could cry non-stop.
i donnoe hw long will this last.
but definitely it will be as long as before.

ITS MY BROKEN HEART..

I need love. ans seriously, i need someone to love me!

2009-04-20T00:44:00.004+08:00

School is starting officially tml. Not tml, but later.
I forgot it has passed 12 midnight.
I am so not wanting to start school.. FOREVER?. lols
sigh, Hong dan, Shanty, Cynthia, Hardy and Pei min will not be in the same class as again like before.. left 6 of us in our cliques instead of the 11 !!~ T_T
The only thing that im glad and happy about is its my final yr!!! OMG. its like FINALLY~~ HOOHOO~~

Another thing that will make me more hype is that Reek is coming back tml!!!~~ ITs like finally? ..!! his 1 week seems to be like 1 month to me. Working day and night everyday is like making full use of my time but i'm still thinking bout him every day, every night. ARGH!!!! i mISS U deaR!!OMG. i just donnoe why but im really So so SO in love with u! hahas. and seriously, i miss u lots!!! Can't wait till tmL~

I AM SO GONNA ANNOUNCE THIS NEWS TO ALL RCCC STAFFS!!!
PLEASE READ CAREFULLY!
i have been working in Fairmont since it was RAFFLES THE PLAZA to FAIRMONT. It has been 4 and the half years. And in my 4 and the half years of work, TODAY is the first time BOSS (J) ask us to help ourselves to the leftover desserts from the western dinner!!!!! not even desserts, but also the main course !! OMG. AMAZING ya? lols. hmmm.. he's wierd. something must've made him changed.. I never ever seen him eating leftover food or even hotel's food at 4th floor.. and he will never ever allow ANYONE to eat !! OMG!! what happened? .. now, think about it, i think Fairmont S**KS big time. ohh.. ppl, if u'r smart, u'll get what i mean. AND please, stop talking behind my back and stop talking things that has already happened.
Im not CSI or something.. and don treat me like a queen whereby u ppl will never talk to me about what happened when im around..

2009-04-17T23:23:00.003+08:00

RANDOM PICS from AUSSIE!!!
GIANT drop at dreamworld

Movieworld~

In the boat on the way to Couran cove

MovieWorld

Movieworld~

CLAW!! new ride at dreamworld

Claudia and Bus driver..

2009-04-16T12:00:00.003+08:00

School gonna starts soon!
I've not completed my logbook!
how how how
Im so bored!!!
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14/04/09
Met up with OITP mates for dinner at LAU PAT SAT
headed to swensens for ice-cream at Marina Square after dinner !
hahas, know why?.. cos is Goh's treat!lol
had fun talking craps and some personal matters with Charles and Keith
WE really miss the days in Australia! PACIFIC FAIR! HABOURTOWN!! wher in sg, its pacific plaza ans hoabourfront!!~~
=( i miss Australia!
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Met up with Mag yesterday after work at 7pm. hahas. get to know one new friend!! Marilyn. H,mmm... we chatted non-stop and even when we just met~ lols. not bad, it shows that im not dao at all..
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Working day and night will not stop myself from thinking so much !!!
I miss reek
Whateva happens to him is really unfair.
but why is it him but not others? . PLS, whoever called is the loser.
He's just doing his job and why the fark u wanna give false staement bout it.
Stop putting words into ppl's mouth and think of what u will get in return.
U'll def get retribution
If u'r jealous, just shout it out.. don have to do hanky panky things like this. u must be an asshole ! I look down on u ppl who does such things!
And no one can be trusted ! its just a place full of conflicts here and ther!
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Reek will only be back on monday/tues
i really miss him badly!!!
=_=
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T_T

2009-04-09T01:25:00.002+08:00

Im back from Aust since fri and i kind of not used to my house..
it seems so spacious..
The hostel was so cramp that its of double deck beds and just enough space for u to open ur luggage.
The weather in AUST was so cooling in the day and COLD st night.
In SG, it is so damn humid and its like u wont get to use the jacket even when it is raining.
time passes so slowly here compared to AUSt
I love Aust. seriously.
Gold coast was beautiful ans relaxing staying near the beach .. Brisbane was like orchard and Adelaide is like a town that u will never get bored..
I just love it so much !!
how i wish i don have to come back to SG when i was there.. didn't even miss a single thing at home when i was there..
hmmm.. maybe its the life i want.FREEDOM!

But things just happened so quickly before i came back and before i left.
Dad and mum got to noe about me and Reek.
Its not something that i wish they wont find out forever of cos
Hw i wish they noe it right from the start but its a matter of race and msian
I don mind what race but my DAD strongly disagree
sigh
i donnoe. ever since i was back till now he's not beening talking to me nicely and giving me that fierce look.
Hw i wish i could sit down and talk to him nicely about me and Reek but i guess that will only be my dream
I'll never talk to him nicely.
I don think he will understand me
i don think he will accept Reek at all
He'll nv listen to me
that's why i never been closed to him .. only to my mum .
sigh.
i find it not point saying hw i feel here. ITs like as if they will find out hw i feel
FCUK

Lots of things is happening right now..
i really donnoe whether god is trying to stop us from being tgt or trying to see how we survive thru ..
whateva it is.. i think whateva happened is unfair.
seriously unfair
to him.. and also to me.
i really donnoe why all this things r happening.
and i really have the feeling of leaving hm..
seriously
its just freaking shit here
Once i'm prepared to leave.. i will .

2009-03-26T20:50:00.006+08:00

hey hey. has not been blogging for so long and guess what?! .. im already in Adelaide now..
hahas. Its my second day here. everything was fine up till now as i cant wait to go home next fri!! hahas, Its like so fast right. lols. Yeah yeah!! i miss steam fish a lot.. miss my Grandma's cooking, mum's cooking, Dad's character.. a lot more..!! its kind of bored every night as time pass faster here i guess.
In Adelaide, its 2 and 1/2 hours ahead time in Sg. weather is cooling in the morning although its sunny, very cold at night although there's no ventilation in the room. Ouh well, i still cant wait till next fri to go home!!

Okay, now its some update about the uni i visited.
First, Bond university. Having attached there for two weeks, its kinda a beautiful and nice uni that gave me a good impression of how the private uni here actually work out. Can be take into consideration if i wanna apply after POly.. lols. but the fees are super Duper exp.
Next, QUT. I can only say that i don like this uni. Not only that its building is old but it doesnt gave me a good impression right from the start when i saw QUT.
Last uni, Uni of South Aus in Adelaide. woohoo! first impression was like, woah! the building of its sch is like so sand castle , Harry potter kind. hahas. i like the place. although it isnt better than Bond but at least it is better than QUT. the best thing is i like it very much!. hahas.
(considering to apply after poly)

class ends at 4 today and we came back to hostel to check on huiyin to see if she's fine. She's not feeling well this afternoon and Debbie accompied her back to the hostel before the lecture at 1pm.
Headed to Habourtown at 4.30pm. There isn't much stuff to buy and i didnt bought a single thing there. lols. Pei qi bought lots of shirts for her sis and so and Koh bought 2 bags for her mum. I ended up buying nothing and the best part, i drop my wallet as Koh and i was running back to VALLYGIRL to buy the shorts that i wanted after having our dinner.
the weather was totally too cold for us although we had worn our hoody. All i know was to get a cab and get back to the hostel asap.
Only realised i dropped my wallet when the we'r already in the cab for about 10 mins. Koh asked the driver to head back to Habourtown but he seems to be DEAF. Until Pei Qi realise the driver wasn't heading back then they asked him to turn back to Habourtown again.
My mind was totally blank.
When we'r back at the carpark where we took the cab, Pei Qi, Koh and i run across the carpark to look for my wallet !! Guess what!!? Koh saw my wallet beside the drain!! lols. yeah..
THANKS KOH!! mY tears started to roll down my cheeks and im really glad that we found the wallet cos all my Aussie money was inside!!
hahas
OKay, back to Blue gala hostel ~
Im actually prepared that i wont find my wallet no matter how

2009-03-11T20:18:00.003+08:00

10/3 - 3rd day in Aust

Woke up at 6am which is only 4.30am in Spore and took shower + wash up.
Today's breakfast was scrumble egg turn out so nice and delicious. WAHAHAHS!! finally had a cup of coffee today after sooooooo long due to my extracted wisdom tooth. Well, after breakfast,back to our rooms and get to changed. All of us gathered together at the dining area and headed off to Bond University.

tues's program was quite okay for me i guess. As prof Craig introduced event-based management that he was teaching right now at Bond.
But somehow, halfway through, Im already falling asleep which i think its quite embarassing to do that as there's only 21 of us in this room. I tried to keep myself awake throughout by 'controlling' myself. lols! but i couldn't at first. So what i did was to take out this SP notebook and started writing what i wanna blog about for the day.

But this was updated so late as the wireless in hostel is not free. It cost me $5 per hour. Only had the chance to blog now as all of us are free to come MAC to connect to wireless.
BUT BUT BUT my lappy wasn't as new as the rest and its only past half an hour and its LOW BATT!! my goodness!!.. i will upload the photos i took either tml or day after when we have our free time doing so. Maybe not tml as there's late night shopping here tml!
Well, late night doesn't mean very late like SG kay.. its only open till 9pm at night!! hahas... for normal days it closes at 5pm. Woah.. so early right.. Well, Aust is 2 hours ahead!!! .. our time pass faster here..

2009-03-07T16:26:00.001+08:00

Bye everyone!!! im going AUSTRALIA today!!
Will update my blog when im there.. see ya and miss me!! lols

2009-02-26T22:35:00.003+08:00

HOHOHO!!~
EXAMS are finally over!~~ phew`
its a draggy test and exams week which lasted 3 weeks and finally, everything is over.
Finally, its gonna be the end of the year for me when sch starts again in late april

Oh well, I really feel like celebrating after so long ..
its been a long time since i ever work like hell and shop like mad!!
okay, anyway i still owe my love a pressie which i've yet to buy since like so long>?
and i think im a bit shot of money these days because I've not been working for like one and the half months or so?.. onli working like once in two weeks and it doesnt even reach up to 50 bucks a day.
BUT, i've already got something in mind.. either a GUCCI wallet or a LV wallet.
Im not really sure which one does he prefer because i think both r nice but LV suits better on man.

Hmmm.. im only left with one week to do some homework, work to earn as much as possible and to get all stuff ready in my luggage before i leave.
need to spend lots of money before i leave and will be spending a lot when im there...
Once im back, i'll be so shock too see that i've got no money to do anything.
OMG.
i really donnoe when i can really save up a big suim of money and wont be thinking about how much i spend as long as im earning.
its so diffcult to actually do things right now as im still studying.

Im kind of missing things here right now..
not only my family but also my love.
=_=
gosh.. im really afraid things might change drastically when im there and even worst when im back.
All thoughts in my mind.. will he call me? .. will he miss me? .. will he even just call me for 5 mins before he starts/end work?..
sigh..
HOW HOW HOW
i will miss u so much !!
but dad, mum, i will miss u more.. u both r always by my side so i wont feel lost ..
but he's different.. we've gone through ups and downs and im falling too deep in love where its too late for me to turn back..

i wanna learn to let go a little when im there in AUST.. i know we shouldnt hold onto certain things too much and i will ..

2009-02-07T09:05:00.004+08:00

I think things aren't gonna be the same anymore.
he'd moved back to JB
Which means he'll spend lesser time with me.
FCUK.
i just can't accept the fact that he's staying in JB now. its still considered that we're staying in diff countries.
Everything gonna change from NOW
He has to wake up earlier than before to get ready and come in for work.
After work, no matter how late he knock off, he needs to rush back to JB.
WTH
then wat about me?
I don understand why he just can't stand staying in the house in SG
Im afraid this would be a big problem again.
Ever since last time when he keep on going back to JB, i hated it so much that i told him i don like him doin this coz whenever he's off, i have to go JB
I really hate going there sometimes as i need to off my phone and going back home late at night.
sigh.
instead of meeting me when he's working morning shift, definitely he will say he's tired, have to go back to JB now
How i wish my parents know bout my relationship and just let him stay with me.
Its like i gonna loose him once again
We'll start all quarrelling again like before.
Im feeling so terrible.. =`(

One month from now im going to AUST
but im starting to miss him and starting to get worried what will happen if im there for a month and he's here.
He was fine when he came back from hometown and was so nice towards me.
But why always am i to taste the sweetness before i get to taste the bitterness?
But i failed in asking him not to move back.
i Failed to keep him staying in SG
i really have no idea when he gonna take PR.
i have no idea whether we'll be tgt ..

2009-01-08T23:07:00.003+08:00

(mother) Mrs. Gump: Life's a box of chocolates, Forrest. You never know what you're gonna get.

Forrest Gump: My Mama always said you've got to put the past behind you before you can move on.

Forrest Gump: I'd make a good husband, Jenny.

Forrest Gump: I'm not a smart man... but I know what love is.

GEMS-General elective modules

The only poly that offer this extra module, SP, which makes us waste our time on this extra and unimportant module. But if u did not pass, u need to take two GEMS for next sem.

Did not get in the GEMS i wanted and i've got no choice to join my friend in this GEMS called film appreciation. Sounds interesting yeah?

hahas

ya, it sounds interesting to me too.. but i just hate to watch movies and think of the themes, issues, sounds, camera shots, angle etc.. .

the first test really made me cracked my brain .. nothing comes out of my mind after watching some stupid irritating short flim. basically, I DON UNDERSTAND at all!

And now, group project. We're working on this flim 'FORREST GUMP'

Luckily, it is an interesting movie. its a comedy but the ending was a little sad.

Its a really nice movie to watch but still, we have to do lots of things that shows why the director wants to create such a movie. OMG.

After watching it, it actually made me feel that things do happen for a reason. And miracles happens everyday. We shouldn't take life for granted and love the ones that loves u.. Never neglect them and show them u don love them at all ...forrest perseverance show that he's able to do anything that a normal person can do. With a lower IQ, he's no difference from others as he suceed in life..

2009-01-05T23:27:00.002+08:00

Back to blogging.

Have been working N O N S T O P during the hols and did not have the time to just sit down in front of my com to blog. Nothing much to update what i did during the hols.
All along, i was working everyday and seeing reek everyday till im getting used to not seeing each other for few days.
Although i'd spend christmas eve and christmas with him, but its only repairing his car and did not celebrate. Just spending time together.
As for new year eve, i was down with fever for 3 days which made me sit at home all day long doing nothing but feeling terribly cold.

Hmmm, i've not been in a BACK TO SCHOOL mood .
skipped school last monday and tues. Only went to sch on wed and fri for the whole of last week.
I'm not satisfied with my results. seriously, I cant believe what i've got this time round.
all modules was okay but only this two modules, econs and BMT, 64 and 69 respectively.
Its the lowest result i score in poly. Im sooooo D I S A P P O I N T E D with myself.

CNY is on the 26th and 27th of Jan .
Lots of housework to do before CNY
had wipe the windows last week and tidied up my room. There are lots of things i wanna throw but now, its like there's nothing for me to throw anymore. Except for some clothes i guess. LOLS
im just waiting for my dad to buy curtain for me and help me to fix it!~ =p
Daddy had bought a marble dining table which will only arrive on wed. Initially dad wanted the granite table which i think it is also nicer, but its not worth to pay $2000 for that. So, we chose marble at $1200 instead. finally te very very old antique dining table at home will be thrown away!!
Yeah.. my BLK is halfway through lift upgrading and im upgrading internally as well!!
hehehe. My hope is to get the paint ASAP and get my room and living room painted before CNY. but its far impossible cos i've got no time to buy!!

Sometimes i feel that he's good ..
But at times, i don understand why he's treating me this way...
Yet, my love for him will never change ..
will we be together in the end.. ? .. i really donnoe.

2009-01-01T13:36:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!

2009, i wish:
-good health to all my family members and love ones...
-my relationship would be smooth througout..
-treat me better
-acheive better results

2008-12-26T18:41:00.003+08:00

THANKS for the christmas text PEEPS!!!
i apologised for not replying u ppl coz i wasn't in town during eve and christmas and its too exp for me to reply 22 messages
I'hv yet to pay my phone bills too!
IM SORRY

thanks:
tomato rccc
Ying Hao
Bing Nan rccc
Gabriel pdr
Hisham
jeanette SP
EdvinnA rccc
Maggie darl
Sunny cook rccc
Georgina SP
Jun Xian SPA
Ah Sheng
Yong Xing
Siew Ling SPA
Unknown 9752....
Zakuan
Unknown 9863
Shalini
Raphael
Yulianto
Eric pdr
Desmond Optics

2008-12-16T12:41:00.006+08:00

YA, YOU'RE RIGHT
I'm glad you noe what i mean
but sometimes things just aren't as simple as u think.
Its difficult for me to trust him again and again after so many things had happened.
Im not making a big fuss out of it but im just telling u what u should do
PUT URSELF IN MY SHOES AND U NOE WHAT I MEAN.
i believed u hope ur guy or that person will tell u before any misunderstandings occurred
AND just imagine u found it out urself instead of anyone telling u what had happened
U'll be kept in the dark forever.
ITS FOREVER!!!
HOW WOULD U FEEL THEN?
it will nv be as easy as what u think a simple 'lift home'
I hope u really get what i mean and how i feel when i got to noe about it by MYSELF
I broke into tears immediately when i saw it
So, do u noe how i feel now?
I'll never think positive when certain things happened.
Do u think u will think on the positive side if it was u? i doubt so.
I doubt any girls would think positive if they saw or even get to noe about a 'simple lift home'
Even though i trust u but its better to be safe than to be sorry
Im not in good terms with him but he's still someone whom i would care for
He's still someone whom i love.
there're too many things to forgive and forget but once u'r deeply in love with him, u seems to be anxious when certain things happened
Ur mind is just about him and no one else
IF I CAN LET IT GO, I CERTAINLY WILL
BUT its too late BECAUSE I AM NOT ABLE TO DO SO

This post is meant to be typed for u

2008-12-15T14:57:00.002+08:00

U'r too kind and too friendly towards me that i didnt noe ur intentions right from the start. I really donnoe why u'r such a SLUT and trying to be bitchy!
u better stop everthing because im starting to hate u! U'r too much, don't u think so?..
U SUCK!
one more time and u'll know what i will do to u

2008-12-15T14:08:00.007+08:00

RETARD k VS RETARD m lols

Junjie

vincent and Guo xiong

me, vin and Amrul

Amrul and james

Went SENTOSA with sec. sch cliques on tues.

hahas. did not really enjoy coz im the ONLY girl who went. =_=

but ya, overall it wasn't as bad as i thought.

We went to watch SONG OF THE SEA!! woah.. i just love it so much even though its my second time watching.

Headed back home around 10 plus and reached AMK at 11.

supposed to meet mane all again at 1130 to go ST JAMES after we've unpacked and changed our clothes at home. Only then i realised i left my keys at palawan west toilet.
SHIT!!~~

im like WTH.. i onli knew it when i wanted to open the door. FCUK.. lost my thumdrive and all docs inside. fcuk it

Was kinda pissed that i cant go ST JAMEs with them and kinda pissed of myself for losing the keys..letter box, door and gate keys as well as clubhouse keys is GONE!!

Mane is going in to NS today and hopefully he wont loose weight coz he's already VERY skinny.
lols. TAKE GOOD CARE OF urself and see u soon on christmas eve!!~

my application for Bursury at teck ghee was successful!! yeahs! hahas. but don noe how much will i get.. hopefully 500 bucks and AUS expenses whould be covered by 50% ~~

2008-12-11T13:45:00.002+08:00

went Ubin with my sch cliques yesterday.
Koh wei was supposed to tag along with us but she said she need to accompany her BF coz he's having exams. So, only shane, pei Qi, Pei min, jeanette, cynthia, jeanette's bf(Joel) and i went ubin to cycle
we had great fun cycling thru certain no through routes and getting mosquito bites.
hahas.
Pei Qi and Jeanette got the most bites coz they'r blood are mosquito's loves.lols
cycled to Chek Jawa wetlands, NPCC camp and certain areas which i couldnt rmb the names..
but all of us were rushing back to jetty coz Puimin need to catch her train back to KELANTAN at 6pm

Headed over to Changi airport after Puimin left.
And all of them ate popeye for dinner and we had ESPLANADE BOBO CHACHA for dessert.
"yum yum"
wanted to head back home but shane's leg was cramp again and again. so, pei qi and i waited for him to recover while cyn, jeanette and joel left as they were rushing back to get change for CLUB!

When Shane is possible to walk, he headed over to take sky train
Along the way, took some pics of disney in airport.
Skytrain to terminal 1 and then to terminal 2..
train to city and HOME SWEET HOME

2008-12-11T12:42:00.007+08:00

UBIN photos uploaded...

2008-12-06T01:28:00.006+08:00

Okay, just a 'brief summary' of my first week of DEC

monday- woke up at 7am, test, back home to study till 1am
tuesday-woke up at 7am to study,test, back home to study till 1am
wednesday- woke up at 7am to study, test, back home to study till 1am
thurs-woke up at 7am to study, test, back home to study till 12am
fri- woke up at 7am to study, test, went to bugis with mag and rushed back home to watch 'LITTLE NONYA'

Its the same routine everyday and i realised i'hv not been sleeping well. One week has just passed by doing the same f*ing thing everyday. and im gonna start working tml which i really donn intend to. sigh.. for qianhui's sake, i have to.
Moreover, i need to start saving up for my AUS trip. Daddy has paid $1600 for the tickets, acommodation and etc.. i shall use my own money for the expenses then .. hopefully to earn at least $1000 during this 3 weeks of hols so i don have to think too much about money matters when im off to AUS

And i really need to earn more in order to buy more NEW YEAR CLOTHES!!
Its onli now i've realise its gonna be 2009 in 25 days. OMG. poly life is kind of sucky where sometimes u don even realise the normal hols u've enjoyed last time is no longer the hols u'r enjoying now.

BUT!!!! i really want the GUESS bag i long wanted when it was released in market. its 20% off but its still costing $151.90 im still thinking whether i should buy now before it landed into someone's hand or to wait till the price drops further coz YEAR END SALE gonna start soon!!

and its hols now!! 3 weeks only. sigh

2008-12-05T23:18:00.005+08:00

I wanna buy this.. F480 in 2009 . hahs. so i can upgrade my line. WhooOO

2008-12-02T08:35:00.004+08:00

MONDAY-building services II : damn easy.
TUESDAY-Structures : easy
WEDNESDAY- MBW : easy
THURSDAY- BMT : easy
FRIDAY-econs : FLUNK

MST is over !! woowowooo .. 3 weeks hols starting from today!!

2008-11-26T23:41:00.003+08:00

My wonderful results. first time in poly. WAHAHHAHs

WAs selected for OITP

I cant imagine staying away w/o parents for a month.

will i feel homesick?

will i miss anyone?

isit the best time for me to put everything away and just enjoy cum ateending lectures there?

I don know

AUSTRAILIA -Sydney from 7/3/09 ~ 3/4/09

Okay, im gonna spend like 1k or so from my earnings and hopefully daddy and mum will pay $1600 for my air tickets..

after 50% susidy from sch, still have to spent so much. =_=

But i just cant wait to go even though its onli end NOV now

next, QS or FM option?

to choose between this two options, its kind of tough for me

I love calculations but QS seems boring.

I love management but i hate memorising

I've got no idea which to choose and option form needs to be submitted next fri!!

sigh..

i just want the option that i can score easily in tests and exams!! hhahs.

coz i don intend to work under this building industry.

BORED!!

2008-11-15T14:14:00.002+08:00

MST is just two weeks away.
hopefully everything goes well for me this few days as im exhausted keeping myself busy.
i am not being myself but i just need a break from everything.

Went for blood donation in school yesterday.
It wasn't that pain as what i expect
the best part is my cliques were there to actually see my blood flowing thru tubes and into a 250ml bag.
i felt disgusted when i see packet of blood and especially when the tube touches my skin, the blood is warm
Anyway, i've save 3 lifes by donating 250ml of my blood

I felt lonely at times. seriously kind of useless that i cant get myself to stop loving.

2008-11-09T12:37:00.002+08:00

Its happening again.
The thing i've fear most is happening again.
I cant believe he can do that again. again breaking my heart into billion peices. All along i thought he'll never do that again and i trusted him so much.
Why why WHY!!!???
i don worth being treated like that.
U're so selfish!! I've never do anything to u and yet u're treating me lIke this again.
WTF is wrong with u?!!
u've never change right from the start.
NEVER

loving u is like piercing my heart each day w/o u noticing it.
u Don derserve to love and i don derserve this kind of fucking love
i HATE u
i regret being soft hearted to accept u again.
and never did i expect this thing will happen again.
living with fear each day thinking how long u will be like this.
NOW, its coming to an end.
The day i've feared most has arrived.
Don regret whatever u've done to me.
This is not what i want and i don want this kind of love.
FCUK U!
I can never get myself to heal my heart again.
Can u please leave me once and for all and let me have a love that i deserve ???
U'r being selfish!
always thinking u'r right. thinking u'r great. thinking u've done nothing wrong.
U don even deserve to have someone with u .

i regretted it so much.
i don noe wat i can do now.
i really have no idea how long i will take to heal again.
i hate u ! i hate u!

2008-11-02T19:53:00.005+08:00

Happy deepavali to all !!!

Okay, was invited by shanty to her house last monday. Her maid cooked a lot of delicious indian food, seriously. Yummy!!
But not all my cliques in class went, only those three in the pics. hahas
everyone has their own BUSINESS i guess.
Anyway, her house is beautifully decorated especially her room, princess theme. Its like, whoa!!! pink wall ans filled with decos of how a princess room will look like. @_@
and that's actually the colour i wanted to paint for my room. But i've never get the chance. Im planning to do that next yr before CNY. yeah

Next, to Ganesh house. My sec sch fren. met the same peeps who went to his house every year.
had dinner, and they went prawning while i went back home.
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Reek is back to work and everything seems fine except his car, got scratch and dented by some Assholes contractors. He's not in the mood and so do i. hopefully the F***ing main contractor will pay the the damage caused by his workers!!!!

2008-10-16T11:20:00.002+08:00

Worked for jimmy yesterday.
He finally noe about my relationship which i kept it from him since i started working for him one year ago..
When he knew about it, he was really dissappointed with me. He told me lots of things which is truth and that i've been thru since i started working in hotel.
thinking about it, wat he said really affects me last time.. and maybe in future? i wont noe .
I can see he is concern abt me and treating me like his own daughter telling me all facts and things that he'd gone thru in the past.
And he always wanted me to find someone who can give me a better life in future.
Money seems to be an issue which he always emphasize. however, rich ppl tends to flirt and DON'T depend on ur husband when ur married. (reason wise, i'm not stating. )
I admired him. Seriously.
He's a good husband. Which is difficult to find such man nowadays.
This sunday is his wife's and daughter's bday and will not be cooking for the catering. Jacq gonna take over.
He's willing to spend the day with his wife and daughter putting away his job.

Its a fact that hotelians has less time for their partners. and even NO time.
they're also complicated.
He has no time for me. and i wont know what he's doing besides working.
hotelians are complicated. seriously complicated.
i knew it when i started working in swissotel.
thinking about what jimmy said, he made me feel dissappointed with myself. And im worth of a better man giving me a good life in future.
i told myself not to fall in love with anyone in the hotel. but it happened. which i think i shldn't. certain things are within our control. And im still young, which i still have lots of choices. the only problem is my heart and feelings.

2008-10-14T22:45:00.003+08:00

okay, second day of sch.
Im feeling quite alright as i manage to be in class on time which i hardly used to be for the past 1 1/2 years.
Time flies. Seriously its gonna be week 8 very soon frm now and again, will be having test before 3 weeks brk.
And then... very soon to my ITP. 2 choices for me which i've not made up my mind.
AUST or SING?
I might be able to enjoy a little during one month in GOLD COAST putting away lectures from monday to friday at universities allocated for us. However, im not paid for attending the lectures and onli paid a little allowance everyday for meals. And spend 2k + for flight and hostel.
Yet, if its in SG. I have to work every day depending on a five days or six days work and being paid like 3 to 4 hundred a month for 3 months. so wat? ..
Okay, its not time to decide anyway.

Hmmm, I've not been running for 2 months in the term break and i'm gonna start tml . Expected my stamina would be relatively poor and thinking how i can regain my 2.4k at 11 mins +
Had actually been trying hard to train back my stamina before end semester test but didnt manage to as im always panting like hell . I seems to be getting older? . hahas. Speed has droped drastically after i stopped running for 2 weeks. training back the speed and stamina requires lots of time.

I get tired easily here and there. How? ..

Love didnt call me for 2 days. sigh
im just afraid he will be the same as before.
but i really hope he wont. and NEVER again

2008-10-08T00:06:00.004+08:00

Woah, holidays are coming to an end real soon. Five more days.
Ouh, no..its already 00:08 now. its four more days.

Seriously, i did not really spend my hols going out and even meeting any of my friends except working and being with my love.
Gosh, i guess im really spending too much time working and not bothering about anything else. All day long im jus thinking about working. That's all. Nevertheless, i just wanna spend my EXCESS time with him as i know i can be with him most of the time during my hols. I'm a little upset whenever sch starts and I hate it so much. Not that i will only spend less time with him, but certain things will also happened. I just hate it.

Supposed to have a gathering long time ago but some ppl made things cock up thinking that im at fault to inform ppl in my contact list of false info. sigh. Thought it would be great to have gatherings with sec. sch cliques but it turned upside down instead. I apologised that the gathering did not happened as i wasn't the 'organizer' and they did not manage to get a pit so last min. Will organise one real soon.

How i wish im an working adult and married with him. lols. i hate teenage life!! anyway, its my last yr of teenage. hurray!!
Think about it, i actually decided to end my relationship 2 or 3 months ago. but his persistant and love made me withdraw my decision. He knows im soft-hearted and will not reject easily.
But after all these years, i can say and even swear that he is treating me much much more better compared to the past. something must have made him change so much but i didn't noe anything about it. All im hoping for is he would treat me the same way now forever.I really cannot afford to loose u again, too deeply in love.

2008-10-04T12:00:00.003+08:00

Okay, here are some pictures during F1...

Grand stand

Sky terrace

Sky suit
I'm working at this sky suit that 3 days-Hong seh Motors, Ferrari team

Viewing area //

Sg flyer seen from sky terrace.

and this are my colleagues working together in the same suit, same company for 3 days..

Dickson, teamleader in-charge of our suit. =)

2008-09-22T20:42:00.004+08:00

okay, its my day off today.
finally got to rest after working non-stop since i came back from Datuk.
Its gonna be a week of torture starting frm tml as will be working everyday and almost 18 hrs per day for F1 during the 3 days 25~28 sep
I can't imagine hw it will be like till the day comes.
Gonna spend my bday @ work again. Its kinda pathetic to work during birthday every year and even this year. hahas.
I doubt i can rmb when was the last time i celebrate my birthday.
Anyway, it falls on the last day of F1. hopefully everything can finished by 2am and not later than that after unloading @ hotel.

I've got my results 4 days ago..
2 distinctions
4 B's
1 B+
Sem GPA= 3.456...
Cummulative= 3.245...
Im not very contented with my results coz it falls 0.2 when comes to cummulative. i don understand what exactly the cause of it but im just freak with it.
did not acheive my target of 3.5
sigh.. got to work harder i guess. WTF

Actually, asked flo to replace me today
reek was off and we had planned to go Sentosa in the evening
everything was ruined by him again.
Disappointed*
Claiming he is tired. like as if im not after working so many days.
its like i shouldnt have asked flo to replace . FCUK.
i think i just wont be able to go anywhere with him except going back home together after work .
hahas. wat a fcuking couple life

2008-09-18T23:10:00.000+08:00

LAND X at Gunung DATUK
15/09/08~16/09/08

S'pore checkpoint.

Taken at base camp

Thomas trying to communicate with a cat when we reached rangers station. hahas.
I can't believe he actually did that. lols

Muxing, excited and couldn't resist to open e MILI fruit cocktail

Caught Muxing trying to peek at Adam's... (hahas)

Pathetic dinner. Yet delicious to everyone!

NJ.. being mummy for just a moment. hahs

This are our STRONG Upgraders(girls)
OOpps. NJ not in the pic..

Saiful and i

Let's give a round of applause for Wenyi who actually afraid of height, had actually took this pic at the highest peak

Erm... Eugene?.. hahas.

Thomas and me. its e only pic that he did not give any funny face.

Jus imagine how scary it is to actually climb up with the ladder..

Sunset.. i LOVE this pic

GRP pic. /random

Junfeng..

Junxian

It looks like New ZEALAND. WOAh. NICe scenery up there~

Wenyi, legs numb due to heights..

Eng hin

Candid

SLEEPing BEaUtY sssss lols

Hmmm.. wat's going on here.. gaying ard? hahs

Smile SHoT

Teamwork

2008-09-18T08:10:00.007+08:00

Its so unfair. SO UNFAIR
two DIST
one B+
four B's
GPA turn out to be 3.45++
WTH WTF
i don deserve such LOUSY grades
put in so much effort and yet this is what i freaking hell got.
PISSED

2008-09-09T13:54:00.000+08:00

Okay, just wanna post this two pic i took two days ago when there's a birthday fuction for a 60 year old man. Of coz, they're ANG MO.
Well, the setup is really nice and most of the things are from them themselves. which includes menu cover, napkin ribbon, chocolates, rose platters and roses as well as a small swaroski keychain which is hanging on the brunches.
I really love the setup. it has been so long since i last saw a beautiful setup in pdr.
LOLs.

Okay, anway, will be working everyday and nothing much to post about at workplace.
Just don wanna waste time during the hols and im gonna earn lots lots.
well, there's again helipad function coming thurs and will update pics of the tiny s'pore seen from the tallest building here. =D

2008-09-04T14:46:00.000+08:00

Its the 6th day of hols.
and have been working since the last paper on the 28th till now. ..
Time flies..
results gonna be out in just a week's time

supposed to be in sch for aax yesterday and today but they cancelled it last min on tues night .
and bcoz of that i did not do any booking to work.
gotta rot at home !!
WTF.. im so pissed luh..

WAS supposed to meet maggie yesterday for shopping and it jus rained the whole day after i took shower preparing to go out.
i don wanna waste my time at home and MAG!!! wake up now pls~~~~

2008-08-15T16:50:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!! FINALLY!! FINALLY!! CT is over..
had already taken 4 papers. 3 more to go and that's it. =D
can't wait for the six weeks of hols.. OUH.. i really wanna enjoy my hols this time. (besides working k.) hahas
maybe HAWAII? hahas. heard georgina saying hawaii sells cheap branded stuffs!!!!

Went FAREAST with georgina after CT test at 11.30.
I've spent quite a lot today. WTF. its more than 100 !!
JEans: $52.00 , Heels:$32.90, Skirt:$20, waist belt:$14.90
I wont be spending this much if not for the jeans ~ . .CRY` why r jeans so exp? ..
Not worthy at all to spend 52 bucks for LE jeans..
wanted to buy a very unique black and comfy heels, but there's no more size except 40. sigh

There's this shop at fareast selling damn exp heels. But the shop concept doesn't even look exp at all. Saw this open toes covered heels. black in colour and 3/4 of it has this swaroski crystal which made the heels look glamorous. But the price is even exp luh.. its $349 . My god!! ITS FAREAST u know? .. think its some swaroski shop or gucci isit. Why the fark its so exp.. the heels itself is not those damn good quality type. think must be the crystals that make it costly.

I'm so dissappointed.
the MOE bursary had closed one week ago and i was too late to submit the relavant documents to SAC!! fark. $1000 bucks just gone like that.
Dad is to blame for this because he keeps on forgetting to take his pay slip and drag it till yesterday . its like it took him a week to take the pay slip. so pissed !!

i'm tired and exhausted after memorising so much for the tests.
okay, im gonna stop here.
Need some rest for a better tml. lols =)

2008-08-12T21:04:00.000+08:00

Georgina came to my house and had a big feast..!!
my god.
Florence came at 4 plus or so and ate a lot too.!!

this ppl are too much huh.. come for free tutoring, free dinner, free desserts, free tibits, free drinks and free biscuits.
GOSH.. didnt expect they had ate so much things at my house.
PLS PAY 20 bucks each for the free food and tutoring k.,!!
don ACT blurr!
If any of u gonna fail MBW i gonna give u a tight slap. Im serious. PLS don let my effort drain off just like that !!!
GOOD LUCK!!

2008-08-11T14:43:00.000+08:00

100% ICA papers start today.

CRS paper was shitty hell today..
All topics are so dry like technology and world.
WTF ..
I knew all topics will be like this but i just hate to write and even debate on topics about all this fcuking stuff man.

Chose the topic on something like" our future depends on scientific and technology. no need for religious faith" .
OUh, WTF technology got to do with religious. Think i've written all craps and stuff like technology change our lives, brings social cohesion, change the mindset and stuffs./
sigh~ ..
Took too much time to brainstorm and did not have enough time to conclude everything properly.
I think i did badly ! ouh~~~ WANNA CRY````

2008-08-08T16:27:00.000+08:00

heys peeps!!!
Its the first lecture conducted in lecture theatre for the one and the half years in poly!! lols.
and also the last lecture before ICA commence next week and exams for the following week.
after aug, will be our 6 weeks of hols!!! yeahs
Mr Edmund lied to us saying its a impt lecture to attend as it will be included in the exams.
WTH, in the end Mr JOHN CHAN said its not included and only for our INFO.
Waste the precious 1 and the half hour or our time.
if not will be back home by 12.30pm yesterday.

Its obvious that not even one of them is listening coz all of them were busy chit-chatting and sleeping.
And me, having nth better to di but just to take pics of others. lols.

Well, STUDY HARD FRENS

[ loving u till the end of time. ]

2008-08-05T10:36:00.000+08:00

GREAT~
have not been blogging and even to visit my blog. hahahs.
Know Wats the reason? ? Well, its just a matter of YEAR 2 students.

I donnoe i'hv did something wrong. But i'm sure i DID nothing wrong.
Yet, i'hv a stalker these days.
irritated of her actions and she's being selfish.
Wat's more, putting no effort and contributions in projects.
I think i'hv give in too much that someone is climbing over my head.
well, if that's the case, everything sholud end right now.
YES, NOW
its better not to talk than to hurt someone.

5 days to test and yet i've not flipped through any modules notes.
12 days to exams and yet im still staring blank at home doing nth, putting no effort in my studies.
Im just feeling tired after soooooo many reports, projects and presentations.
having no confidence in the coming test and exams
REASONS: there are many topics to study and everything is getting tougher.
aiming for GPA of 3 or more seems like a dream, which will never come thru .
NOw i noe why others always say "yr 1 is ur honeymoon" . I don't mind going back to sec. schools as it aren't as stress as POLY
Time spend in poly is much longer than schooling in sec. 8-5
by the time i reached home, its like i've left few hours to complete what i need to do and then go to bed
few hours of slp, the next day begins.

Well, frens.. study hard ! and we'll have a great long break after 28th of Aug

im happy with wat i have now.
everything seems fine and perfect.
hopefully it will remain like this forever.
LOVE. ~ hahas

2008-07-21T22:22:00.000+08:00

OKay, Im pissed with LEE jiayao now.
I'm not in poly 50 and yet, he just spend my 30 bucks on the training shirt without asking me again.
FCUK!
Sometimes i really hate this type of guys for doing things w/o informing or even telling.
LARD, not my fault. ask jiao yao for the polo t money. im not gonna pay.

2008-07-15T23:39:00.000+08:00

Okay, I'm freaking hell busy all this while to even type a single sentence here.

Busying like nobody's business.
Projects.
More projects.
Tutorials.
More Tutorials.
Presentations.
More presentations.

And FINALLY, last project to be submitted next week.
Well, I guess the last project is driving me even more crazy. 1000 words report. Fcuk.

Its week 11 now.
Exams and tests will commence on week 15 till week 17.
WWooo... can't imagine there are so much to memorise and every module is getting more complicated + confusing.
CT is worst still. have not even touch on that topic since 1st week of Sem 1 till now.
Hahas
Good luck to myself then.

I should just come out with some plans for my 7 weeks of hols after all exams and tests.
WOW!!~

Tioman?
Langkawi?
Penang?

Loving it more and i cant wait any longer. !!

oKay, attachment @ aust GOLD COAST
Sound interesting ?
Well, its VERY interesting though
1 month attachment @ $3000 inclg stay in hostel.
I want to go and i will!!
savings might not be a problem coz i've got 7 weeks of hols to work and earning 3k in 7 weeks is not a prob i guess.
hahas

Money seems to be disappearing here and there
did not shop for anything.
But my cash is decreasing. WTF
bro still owe 100 for the digi cam
Sea x is another 100 over spent
banking in money every week but it seems like not increasing at all.
have not pay my 3 months bill and Singtel gonna stop me from using it if the issue the fine of $5
Its all crap !

Well, finally can skip two lessons
one on thurs and another on fri.
thinking of skipping the only 1-3 lesson on thurs
hahahs.
I'm stressed up in yr 2.
busy here and there.
skipped/pon if possible.
end class early whenever i can.
-MISERABLE-

I seems to be much more happier now.
hopefully this will last .
New life. new self.
reach sch early/15mins later and will not late for more than half an hour again.
(hopefully)
lols

Well, need to sleep now.
yes, now.
8am class again =_=
got to wake up at 6.
and will be out the whole day coz working pdr at 3pm.

2008-07-04T00:14:00.000+08:00

Okay.. here are the outdated pics of ENDAU ROMPIN on the 1st till 3rd of june

Although the waterfall wasn't as great as Berkelah but the experience of leeches sucking ur blooding throughout the journey was a disgusting thing that i'hv ever seen.
but i enjoyed.. was a great trip with all .. =)

JJ and Siew siew in train
siew siew and chow

the gays. lols
yuhui and felicia @ the third waterfall

chow
Jiayao

taken while waiting for train at JB
the railway track we alight at

Back in CITY SQUARE

fourth water fall
SEXY BODIES of jiayao and chow . hahas . its indeed sexy

jiayao and i in four wheel drive

Taken in bus on the way back to jb
SAIFUL and me in 4WD

Start of trekking

the hut we sleep in and cooked..

2008-06-28T11:06:00.000+08:00

" PROMISES ARE MEANT TO BE BROKEN "
thats ur logic and somehow i think i couldn't make u change for me.
I really don noe why u couldn't change a little for me and to keep ur promises..
I HATE U
U'hv never promise what u said and everytime i'm being soft-hearted by ur words, telling myself to trust u again and again but the end results always dissappoint me.
I tried to hard to forget u but i just couldn't.
But this time i need to be ruthless and cruel to u.
Please don treat me like pearls and diamonds when u'r losing me. I don need all this craps and u always cannot accept the fact that u'r in wrong.

FCUK.
i was waiting for the lift and all of a sudden u came out from the lift.
thinking that u would smile or even shocked to see me, stop there to talk to me like u've seen someone u really love appear in front of u.
BUT u really DISSAPOINT ME when u said nth and wwlked off.
FCUK.
waat's wrong with u ? .
I HATE U I HATE U
I HATE U FOR THE BLOODY HELL PERSONALITY u have.
Its hard for me to forgive what u've done and evrything is over.
PLEASE DON CONTACT ME FOREVER.
i want to forget everything about u
EVERY SINGLE thing 4 years ago till now... genting, KL, LIDO a@ sentosa and everthing.

U wanna be like this? k, let's see how long u can be.
treasuring me when u'r losing me is the only thing u noe hw to do ..
BE yourself then..
i hate u and i hate this fcuking feeling which i couldn't forgive in .

2008-06-26T22:49:00.000+08:00

YEAH!
Results are great but not as wonderful as i wanted to be.
OKay.. here's all 5 modules MST results:

MBW-96
PMM-84
ACC&FN-81
PMI-73
CP-64

FAiled to get A for PM1 and at least a B for the one and only open book test which is CP-contract procurement.

Went Bugis wif geoy today, or should i say ZHU..
lols
*Lmao

MUST visit Bugis B1 coz its a whole new concept and its filled with lots of finger food stalls including restaurants. its very appealing and I bet u couldn't make up ur mind what u should eat when u r there.
*DROOLS

2008-06-26T10:12:00.000+08:00

Phew`
FINALLY in prac 3 now.
All along i wanted to take bike and car license.
but it seems difficult to ride when i'm SHORT and the bike is heavy.
Looking at how easy it was for ppl to ride and drive on the road, it actually needs lots of practice and even judgement of speed.
As for riding, its kind of so much different from bicycle. the judgement of turning a bend or even a sharp one took me 3 sessions to to do a proper turning into the centre lane.
A lane changing is kind of another prob with changing signals.. so many things to rmb when riding.
FARK.
I dropped it so many times that I've got blue black all over my legs.
its difficult and i feel like forgetting about having a bike license but just take the car instead.
I'm getting afraid of bike each time i go for prac.
its kind of so exposed and u might just die on the spot if an accident happened. .
prac 3.01 is about the plank and pylon.. FARK..
should i give up ?..

2008-06-21T00:18:00.001+08:00

I don't wanna spend another day,
Pointing fingers while im placing blame,
Im no angel, imperfect myself, cos baby I am only human,
And I don't wanna put it all on you,
I admit I did some painful things its true,
And im sorry for them, no making amends,
For always thinking I was innocent

Starting today, im gunna change,
Don't wanna make the same mistakes,
Cos I can see a new horizon,
The ice around my heart is melting,
And the hurt I feel is slowly dying,
Now im, no longer crying,
The bridge we burnt is being built again,
Its leading to a new begining,
And it may never be the way it was,
And thats because im talking about forgiveness,
Forgiveness, forgiveness, forgiveness,

I wish we could take back the things we said,
Cos what we saids not always what we ment,
We lost our heads, in the moment,
And the words we used them like a weapon,
But no one wins if we both walk away,
And we hid behind the people we became,
We're warmer than that, we're better than that,
And i still cherish all the things we had,

Starting today, im gunna change,
Don't wanna make the same mistakes,
Cos I can see a new horizon,
The ice around my heart is melting,
And the hurt I feel is slowly dying,
Now im, no longer crying,
The bridge we burnt is being built again,
Its leading to a new begining,
And it may never be the way it was,
And thats because im talking about forgiveness,
Forgiveness, forgiveness, forgiveness

[Bridge]If everybody could forgive and forget (just forget),
Think of all the time that we could spend, being friends,
Think about all the lives we could change,
And all the love we could make,
Baby how the world would be a better place,
In the ennnndddd, ohhhhh,

Starting today, all that we will change,
And ill make the same mistakes, you know that,
I can see a new horizon,
The ice around my heart is melting,
And the hurt I feel is slowly dying,
And im no longer,
The bridge we burnt is being built again,
Its leading to a new begining,
And it may never be the way it was,
And thats because im talking about forgiveness,
Forgiveness, forgiveness, forgiveness,

Forgiveness

If everybody could just forgive,The world would be a much better place,
ohhhhhForgiveness

2008-06-17T16:50:00.001+08:00

Hey people, I've deleted my previous blog. And I am still working on my current blog which will take some time to complete. But please do me a favour by leaving ur blog address in my tagboard for me to link u guys.
Thousand apologies. =)