YThursday, April 9, 2009' 01:25
Im back from Aust since fri and i kind of not used to my house.. it seems so spacious.. The hostel was so cramp that its of double deck beds and just enough space for u to open ur luggage. The weather in AUST was so cooling in the day and COLD st night.In SG, it is so damn humid and its like u wont get to use the jacket even when it is raining. time passes so slowly here compared to AUStI love Aust. seriously. Gold coast was beautiful ans relaxing staying near the beach .. Brisbane was like orchard and Adelaide is like a town that u will never get bored.. I just love it so much !!how i wish i don have to come back to SG when i was there.. didn't even miss a single thing at home when i was there..hmmm.. maybe its the life i want.FREEDOM!But things just happened so quickly before i came back and before i left.Dad and mum got to noe about me and Reek.Its not something that i wish they wont find out forever of cosHw i wish they noe it right from the start but its a matter of race and msianI don mind what race but my DAD strongly disagreesighi donnoe. ever since i was back till now he's not beening talking to me nicely and giving me that fierce look.Hw i wish i could sit down and talk to him nicely about me and Reek but i guess that will only be my dreamI'll never talk to him nicely. I don think he will understand mei don think he will accept Reek at allHe'll nv listen to methat's why i never been closed to him .. only to my mum . sigh. i find it not point saying hw i feel here. ITs like as if they will find out hw i feelFCUKLots of things is happening right now.. i really donnoe whether god is trying to stop us from being tgt or trying to see how we survive thru ..whateva it is.. i think whateva happened is unfair.seriously unfairto him.. and also to me. i really donnoe why all this things r happening. and i really have the feeling of leaving hm.. seriouslyits just freaking shit hereOnce i'm prepared to leave.. i will .