MST is just two weeks away.
hopefully everything goes well for me this few days as im exhausted keeping myself busy.
i am not being myself but i just need a break from everything.
Went for blood donation in school yesterday.
It wasn't that pain as what i expect
the best part is my cliques were there to actually see my blood flowing thru tubes and into a 250ml bag.
i felt disgusted when i see packet of blood and especially when the tube touches my skin, the blood is warm
Anyway, i've save 3 lifes by donating 250ml of my blood
I felt lonely at times. seriously kind of useless that i cant get myself to stop loving.
Its happening again.
The thing i've fear most is happening again.
I cant believe he can do that again. again breaking my heart into billion peices. All along i thought he'll never do that again and i trusted him so much.
Why why WHY!!!???
i don worth being treated like that.
U're so selfish!! I've never do anything to u and yet u're treating me lIke this again.
WTF is wrong with u?!!
u've never change right from the start.
NEVER
loving u is like piercing my heart each day w/o u noticing it.
u Don derserve to love and i don derserve this kind of fucking love
i HATE u
i regret being soft hearted to accept u again.
and never did i expect this thing will happen again.
living with fear each day thinking how long u will be like this.
NOW, its coming to an end.
The day i've feared most has arrived.
Don regret whatever u've done to me.
This is not what i want and i don want this kind of love.
FCUK U!
I can never get myself to heal my heart again.
Can u please leave me once and for all and let me have a love that i deserve ???
U'r being selfish!
always thinking u'r right. thinking u'r great. thinking u've done nothing wrong.
U don even deserve to have someone with u .
i regretted it so much.
i don noe wat i can do now.
i really have no idea how long i will take to heal again.
i hate u ! i hate u!
Happy deepavali to all !!!
Okay, was invited by shanty to her house last monday. Her maid cooked a lot of delicious indian food, seriously. Yummy!!
But not all my cliques in class went, only those three in the pics. hahas
everyone has their own BUSINESS i guess.
Anyway, her house is beautifully decorated especially her room, princess theme. Its like, whoa!!! pink wall ans filled with decos of how a princess room will look like. @_@
and that's actually the colour i wanted to paint for my room. But i've never get the chance. Im planning to do that next yr before CNY. yeah
Next, to Ganesh house. My sec sch fren. met the same peeps who went to his house every year.
had dinner, and they went prawning while i went back home.
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Reek is back to work and everything seems fine except his car, got scratch and dented by some Assholes contractors. He's not in the mood and so do i. hopefully the F***ing main contractor will pay the the damage caused by his workers!!!!
