Simplicity are loved:).

YThursday, October 16, 2008' 11:20

Worked for jimmy yesterday.
He finally noe about my relationship which i kept it from him since i started working for him one year ago..
When he knew about it, he was really dissappointed with me. He told me lots of things which is truth and that i've been thru since i started working in hotel.
thinking about it, wat he said really affects me last time.. and maybe in future? i wont noe .
I can see he is concern abt me and treating me like his own daughter telling me all facts and things that he'd gone thru in the past.
And he always wanted me to find someone who can give me a better life in future.
Money seems to be an issue which he always emphasize. however, rich ppl tends to flirt and DON'T depend on ur husband when ur married. (reason wise, i'm not stating. )
I admired him. Seriously.
He's a good husband. Which is difficult to find such man nowadays.
This sunday is his wife's and daughter's bday and will not be cooking for the catering. Jacq gonna take over.
He's willing to spend the day with his wife and daughter putting away his job.

Its a fact that hotelians has less time for their partners. and even NO time.
they're also complicated.
He has no time for me. and i wont know what he's doing besides working.
hotelians are complicated. seriously complicated.
i knew it when i started working in swissotel.
thinking about what jimmy said, he made me feel dissappointed with myself. And im worth of a better man giving me a good life in future.
i told myself not to fall in love with anyone in the hotel. but it happened. which i think i shldn't. certain things are within our control. And im still young, which i still have lots of choices. the only problem is my heart and feelings.

YTuesday, October 14, 2008' 22:45

okay, second day of sch.
Im feeling quite alright as i manage to be in class on time which i hardly used to be for the past 1 1/2 years.
Time flies. Seriously its gonna be week 8 very soon frm now and again, will be having test before 3 weeks brk.
And then... very soon to my ITP. 2 choices for me which i've not made up my mind.
AUST or SING?
I might be able to enjoy a little during one month in GOLD COAST putting away lectures from monday to friday at universities allocated for us. However, im not paid for attending the lectures and onli paid a little allowance everyday for meals. And spend 2k + for flight and hostel.
Yet, if its in SG. I have to work every day depending on a five days or six days work and being paid like 3 to 4 hundred a month for 3 months. so wat? ..
Okay, its not time to decide anyway.

Hmmm, I've not been running for 2 months in the term break and i'm gonna start tml . Expected my stamina would be relatively poor and thinking how i can regain my 2.4k at 11 mins +
Had actually been trying hard to train back my stamina before end semester test but didnt manage to as im always panting like hell . I seems to be getting older? . hahas. Speed has droped drastically after i stopped running for 2 weeks. training back the speed and stamina requires lots of time.

I get tired easily here and there. How? ..

Love didnt call me for 2 days. sigh
im just afraid he will be the same as before.
but i really hope he wont. and NEVER again

YWednesday, October 8, 2008' 00:06

Woah, holidays are coming to an end real soon. Five more days.
Ouh, no..its already 00:08 now. its four more days.

Seriously, i did not really spend my hols going out and even meeting any of my friends except working and being with my love.
Gosh, i guess im really spending too much time working and not bothering about anything else. All day long im jus thinking about working. That's all. Nevertheless, i just wanna spend my EXCESS time with him as i know i can be with him most of the time during my hols. I'm a little upset whenever sch starts and I hate it so much. Not that i will only spend less time with him, but certain things will also happened. I just hate it.

Supposed to have a gathering long time ago but some ppl made things cock up thinking that im at fault to inform ppl in my contact list of false info. sigh. Thought it would be great to have gatherings with sec. sch cliques but it turned upside down instead. I apologised that the gathering did not happened as i wasn't the 'organizer' and they did not manage to get a pit so last min. Will organise one real soon.

How i wish im an working adult and married with him. lols. i hate teenage life!! anyway, its my last yr of teenage. hurray!!
Think about it, i actually decided to end my relationship 2 or 3 months ago. but his persistant and love made me withdraw my decision. He knows im soft-hearted and will not reject easily.
But after all these years, i can say and even swear that he is treating me much much more better compared to the past. something must have made him change so much but i didn't noe anything about it. All im hoping for is he would treat me the same way now forever.I really cannot afford to loose u again, too deeply in love.

YSaturday, October 4, 2008' 12:00

Okay, here are some pictures during F1...